10 Years!!

Today is our 10 year wedding anniversary, I can't believe we've been married for ten years already!! I woke up around 8am this morning to my favorite breakfast, waffles with strawberries and whip cream, flowers, and a great present (coach wallet). Tonight we're going out to dinner at the Common Grill (where he proposed), and then to a comedy club in Ann Arbor. It should be a nice evening out without kids!!

I never thought I would be married for ten years, I thought maybe 5 would be my max, the women in my family never stay with their first husbands so I just kinda thought I would end up down the same path. To Tim it was never a question, he knew we would be together forever, and I can honestly say that now I do too. I feel very blessed to of had these ten years with him. So ten years later, four kids later I'm the happiest I've ever been!!

Thankful

I've been so caught up in the stress of life lately, that I feel like I have really lost my way and let the stress take over my life. It's like I've forgotten that I have a wonderful husband and four healthy, happy, great kids, that life is good!! Sometimes I get so caught up in all the negatives that I totally forget to be thankful for all the good and wonderful things in my life. I have this big wonderful family that I've always wanted, I'm moving..which is something I've always wanted to do, I have all of my kids here with me, what more can I really ask for. I'm going to put some extra effort in being thankful and enjoy all of these blessing that God has given me, not to stress so much over the small stuff. I know how fast life can change, I've experienced my life changing in the blink of a eye, feeling my life crumble, and my normal being stripped away from me. I'm just thankful that my life didn't change in such a way that she was taken away from me, I'm thankful that while it's hard and challenging that I get to take care of her, I get to keep her alive and thriving. So I I'm going to try harder to stay positive, to let stress consume me, to enjoy everyday I have with my kids!! No more stressing about packing and moving, it's just motions I have to go through, it's not the end of the world!!

Overwelmed

So to say I have a lot on my plate right now seems like a understatement!! I honestly don't know what I was thinking when I decided I would home school my kids until we moved, I must of been drunk at the moment! I love having the kids at home with me, but I am so sick of trying to keep them entertained and schooled, while I have to clean the house, laundry, cooking, dishes, pack, make endless phone calls, try to make "whine a lot" happy, and try to pretend like I'm not stressed and everything is happy, happy, HAPPY!! UGH, I'm worn out. I hate packing and would love to say that "I will never move again", but that would be a lie. I'm already dreading the next move, and I'm not finished with this one. I'm starting to understand how people settle into living in the same house for their whole life's. Packing sucks.

I guess it's time

I have only packed one box, and that was really only because I was putting up my Halloween decorations. I now have 3 weeks to moving day, I think it's time I start packing up the house..ugh. I have no ambition or desire to do this, I just know I have to. It's so funny how attached I get to "stuff", I'm terrible!! I think if I could pick up the house and land I live on and just drop it in NC, I would be THRILLED!! So anyways I'm convincing myself that it is time to just get it done :) I'm off to figure out what to start packing first, wish me luck!!!

Fall '09

I have to admit I love fall, now I would love fall in the 70's and 60's even more, but I'll take what I get! I love the leaves turning colors, wearing jeans, going to the apple orchard, soccer games on Saturday morning, enjoying hot cocoa for the first time in a long time, and being able to curl up on the coach under a blanket with the kiddies!! Having three of the kids all in soccer Saturday morning has proven to be quite the juggling act, and I'm very lucky that my Mom and Dad have been there for me!! It's impossible to be at three games at once, and Tim is coaching Harrison's team, so my parents are able to be at "the other" kids game. The kids are loving soccer, Harrison has made the first goal in the game for the past two games, we are very proud of him!! Jack has been doing great, he made four goals in his first game and two in his second, and he is a great team player! Olivia has been doing great too, and defiantly looks the cutest of them all out on the field :) She has come very close to a couple of goals and she is anxiously awaiting her first goal of the season!! And well then there is Max, he loved the first set of games when it was nice and sunny out, and then yesterday happened. Let's just say I should of left him in the car!! Haha, he was a bear!! It was so cold and rainy out, and I wanted him to wear a hat or the hood of his sweatshirt, he didn't! He cried about having to wear that hood for the whole two hours we were at soccer, such a little stinker!! Now he really should of had mittens and a winter coat on and been wrapped in a fleece blanket like a burrito!!

I still haven't started packing, I think I'm going to put it off until like the week before I move. It sounds like a complete nightmare to pack up a house that we have lived in for almost 10 years, the crap that accumulates is unbelievable!! I love my house, and I think I might always call this place my "home", I didn't know leaving it would be so hard!! I'm trying to bury all those feelings down deep and look forward to our new adventure and discovering our new "home".

Jack just had his Birthday, I can't believe he's 11, I'm not quite sure where all the time went. It's been hitting me pretty hard lately that this stage of life (raising our family) is flying by. It's hard to think that in seven years Jack could be leaving for collage, and Olivia will be a teenager. Wow, I wish I could rewind the past 10 years and just live it all over again!! And of course my baby turns 2 in about three weeks..Wow!! These are defiantly the best years of my life.